Today was one of those days that I have truly felt the love of God. I have been given the strength to endure and I have so strongly felt the spirit.
It has been hard the last couple of weeks being on bed rest. I keep thinking to myself that I should not complain. I bet there are many people out there who would love to just take a break from life and responsibilities and be on bed rest. Overall, my life has become a little easier, but at times it's so hard when I can't pick up my son and hold him when he is tired or hurt and that he now goes to his father for this comfort. It has been hard to have to stay laying down or sitting when Eric is working on the house and he is so tired and at the same time has to attend to Tyler's needs because I can't. It has been especially hard not being able to go to church for the last couple of weeks. I have felt that I had lost some of that spiritual rejuvenation that I got after attending church each week. I also hadn't taken the sacrament in 2 weeks.
This week I decided that I just could not stay away from church. I know Heavenly Father wanted me to attend and I felt that I just needed to feel the spirit to help me through life right now. Oh boy, did I feel the spirit. I happened to pick a great day to come. Today our wonderful Bishopric was released and we learned who our new Bishopric was to be. I can't say enough wonderful words about the Bishopric who had been serving our ward. For Eric, as ward executive secretary, he has come a lot closer to them and I have seen an extraordinary increase in blessings in our family because of this calling so I was very emotional when they were released. I could not stop crying. In fact, I was tearful from the moment I stepped into the church building this morning. Then they called the new Bishop and 2nd counselor and the spirit became even stronger because I knew that these two men were called specifically by God. I was just a cry baby through out the entire meeting. This whole week there has been a lot of discussions within our ward on who would be our new Bishop and we have been praying for a smooth transition. I know that Eric will be blessed for working with these people and I have so much love already for them and so much love for the Bishopric that we had.
So it has been a very emotional and spiritual day and I knew that I was supposed to be at church today. What was even greater was that even with all the crying, I did not have one contraction in that 1 1/2 hours of sacrament meeting. I don't remember the last time that I had felt relief for that long. I also remember feeling so much happiness in taking the sacrament and felt that it had a new meaning for me. It's so strange how life experiences change your feelings and perspectives on activities that have become a sort of routine in your life. I hope that I don't take this for granted again. I also know that as long as I am up to it, I am going to go to sacrament meetings from now until these boys are born because I need to fill my spiritual cup every week.
It has been hard the last couple of weeks being on bed rest. I keep thinking to myself that I should not complain. I bet there are many people out there who would love to just take a break from life and responsibilities and be on bed rest. Overall, my life has become a little easier, but at times it's so hard when I can't pick up my son and hold him when he is tired or hurt and that he now goes to his father for this comfort. It has been hard to have to stay laying down or sitting when Eric is working on the house and he is so tired and at the same time has to attend to Tyler's needs because I can't. It has been especially hard not being able to go to church for the last couple of weeks. I have felt that I had lost some of that spiritual rejuvenation that I got after attending church each week. I also hadn't taken the sacrament in 2 weeks.
This week I decided that I just could not stay away from church. I know Heavenly Father wanted me to attend and I felt that I just needed to feel the spirit to help me through life right now. Oh boy, did I feel the spirit. I happened to pick a great day to come. Today our wonderful Bishopric was released and we learned who our new Bishopric was to be. I can't say enough wonderful words about the Bishopric who had been serving our ward. For Eric, as ward executive secretary, he has come a lot closer to them and I have seen an extraordinary increase in blessings in our family because of this calling so I was very emotional when they were released. I could not stop crying. In fact, I was tearful from the moment I stepped into the church building this morning. Then they called the new Bishop and 2nd counselor and the spirit became even stronger because I knew that these two men were called specifically by God. I was just a cry baby through out the entire meeting. This whole week there has been a lot of discussions within our ward on who would be our new Bishop and we have been praying for a smooth transition. I know that Eric will be blessed for working with these people and I have so much love already for them and so much love for the Bishopric that we had.
So it has been a very emotional and spiritual day and I knew that I was supposed to be at church today. What was even greater was that even with all the crying, I did not have one contraction in that 1 1/2 hours of sacrament meeting. I don't remember the last time that I had felt relief for that long. I also remember feeling so much happiness in taking the sacrament and felt that it had a new meaning for me. It's so strange how life experiences change your feelings and perspectives on activities that have become a sort of routine in your life. I hope that I don't take this for granted again. I also know that as long as I am up to it, I am going to go to sacrament meetings from now until these boys are born because I need to fill my spiritual cup every week.
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OK, you are making me cry. I am so glad that you got to go!!! I bet that you got a lot of strange looks and people telling you that you should be in bed. LOVE YOU! I am so thankful for your strength and your testimony.
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